As its a country of demos. I find myself lonely among friends and saw many friends crying for thier love. I remember it was 2000 and 2001, a girl was there next to my door, she was friend of my sisters and sumtimz when i played any game with her, her smile was different and a kind of attraction in her eyes i found. I was having a girlfriend that time. So my vision towards that girl was simple. I broke up my relation with my girlfriend in 2004. I tried to find a girl who loved me and i thought i will get her if i could read the eyes of a girl who is interested. But there were many sweet smiles, they were making me confused. The interaction was good but in few conversations, they bored me. Now it was sumer of 2007 and i felt myself alone and i becam a thinky person, who was fighting with his friends if they were asking anything/ for anything. Suddenly it came in my mind that it may be she,the girl next to my door. her attitude was soft when i was around. The way she used to look at me... smiley face! Her interest to play with me. We played badminton as usually many times. And if sumtimz i bcame hard in game, she smiled so cute. that made me to play softly against her. I liked to talk with her, to play with her, to see her when she smiles to see her when she is sad, to let her cheat with me in game. Yes, its right that i felt happiness when she was around. But what a foolish thing it was? I did not recognize my love. I didnt get when it happened? Now Aug to Dec of '07, total 5 months i was thinking of her and old days. I went to my hometown, i set my mind if my legs started walking towards the girl, she will be love only. I was standing, she passed by, i just wanted to meet and talk to her but she didnt stop. I wanted to say i love her but i could not. After this i never met her till writing this blog. I told this to my parents but they were not agree. After the last meet i have got psy disease in feb'08. Doctor and my friend says the reason is that girl, as i was saying something while sleeping.
Love you &#@¥¡
